Oh Christmas Tree!

I love the warm family-friends-neighbor-tender-belonging feeling. I tear up singing about that little baby in the manger. I so enjoy the making and sharing of gifts. I'm joyful to see my kittens so excited. I'm stoked to give Dan Barney the wacky/super-cool things I've made for him. I'm gleeful at the sight of decorations and twinkle lights. I'm too tender about the unexpected gifts of others. I'm grateful that I have the opportunity to do many acts of charity during this season.
There is so much to feel love and happiness about this Christmas season. The front side of my Christmas Tree in the above photo represents those warm feelings. The backside, however, represents other feelings about this holiday that I am trying hard not to focus on. There is a frustration at the lack of time that I have to get all of these gifts done and orneriness from that lack of sleep due to trying to get gifts done. In the world there is too much ingratitude, gluttony and greed. I'm sad that everyone can't have everything they need. I'm frustrated wishing that I could send something to each person that I've thought about and wishing that so many events weren't packed up in to such a short time span. I'm worried that I'm going to disappoint my loved ones by not fulfilling their dreams of sugarplum-ish ideals. Humph.

There, I said it. Now I'm going to turn the little devil to the wall and snort a little more gingerbread aroma and maybe even hum a few bars to some cheery jingles. Then I'm going to go and look at my little sleeping kittens. That's always a good thing to do because they look so sweet while they're sleeping. Then maybe I'll even try to get a few hours of sleep myself. Zzzzz.....